•Wednesday, October 05, 2011
1. Ee madhya travel chesthunnappudu, nenu observe chesthunnadi, chinnapillalu adukkovadam. Ofcourse, mundu chusaaanu. But ippudu inkaa ekkuvayyindi. It's hurting me. Edo okati cheyaali. Idi oka business ayipoyindi ippudu. :( Temples deggara enti, ekkada padithe akkada kanipisthunnaaru. Peddavaallu vaalla svardham kosam veella childhood ni nasanam chesthunnaru. Manam dabbulu daanam chesthunnamu anukuntaam kaani akkada pillalu inkaa ekkuva mandi thayaaru avuthunnaaru. Alaa, maname vaalla bhavisthyaththuni naasanam chesthunnamu. Daanam cheyaali anukunte, donate veggies/fruits/biscuits, adi kudaa peddavaallaki(old age) lekapothe health related issues tho suffer avuthunna vaallaki.
I wish this child begging stops very soon.
Oka local train lo ee website chusaanu... Hope, this helps in proceeding further. http://stopchildbegging.webs.com/
2. Buses strike valla, monna local train chaala rush gaa undi. Ladies compartment unnaa, train aage okka nimisham ki, aa rush lo I couldn't get into it. General ekkesaa. Akkada Gents comments, Ladies di undi kadaa, adi ekkithe baagundedi adi idi ani... Vinna vinnaa, I couldn't take it for long, idi Gents compartment aa ani adigaaa??? General ae kadaa, meeru elaa ekkaro nenu alaane ekkaa anna. Debbaki andaru silent. I had my respect. 1 good thing is people understood.
3. Ninna temple ki vellinappudu, enduko akkada money hundilo veyaali anipinchaledu. Thought of doing something outside.. So, got fruits and donated the same(kushtivyadhitho baadhpaduthunna vaallu). Vaalla kallalo nenu chusina happiness was amazing. But, entha kaalam ilaa bayate untaaru? Eminaa homes unnayemo thelusukuni vaallani cherpinchaali.
4. Eppudu bayata unna andaalane(nature) photos theesthu undedaani. Suddengaa 2 days nundi enduko, nenu chaala vaatini differentiate chesthunna ani ardhamayyindi. I am not able to look at everything in the same way. Nenu maaaraali. Started seeing life the other way. Road meeda bobbalu unna sareeramtho nadusthunna vyakthini chusaa... Suddengaa moham thippesukunnaa.. Nenu enti ilaa anukuni malli chusaa. I took that courage to see him. Tharuvaatha people suffering with leprosy and all. Chudatam modalu pettaa. Mundu oka laanti bhayam undedi. Vaallu manalaanti manushulekadaa anipinchi, velli vaallake apples ichchi vachchaaa. Felt happy from inside. Inkaa nenu chaala vaatini overcome cheyaali.. I know it will happen as it already started... :) For all this change in me, I can only thank Sadhguru.
5. Fears still strike. Burralo thoughts unnantha kaalam ee badha thappadu kadaa. I know the medicine. Serious effort pettali.
I wish this child begging stops very soon.
Oka local train lo ee website chusaanu... Hope, this helps in proceeding further. http://stopchildbegging.webs.com/
2. Buses strike valla, monna local train chaala rush gaa undi. Ladies compartment unnaa, train aage okka nimisham ki, aa rush lo I couldn't get into it. General ekkesaa. Akkada Gents comments, Ladies di undi kadaa, adi ekkithe baagundedi adi idi ani... Vinna vinnaa, I couldn't take it for long, idi Gents compartment aa ani adigaaa??? General ae kadaa, meeru elaa ekkaro nenu alaane ekkaa anna. Debbaki andaru silent. I had my respect. 1 good thing is people understood.
3. Ninna temple ki vellinappudu, enduko akkada money hundilo veyaali anipinchaledu. Thought of doing something outside.. So, got fruits and donated the same(kushtivyadhitho baadhpaduthunna vaallu). Vaalla kallalo nenu chusina happiness was amazing. But, entha kaalam ilaa bayate untaaru? Eminaa homes unnayemo thelusukuni vaallani cherpinchaali.
4. Eppudu bayata unna andaalane(nature) photos theesthu undedaani. Suddengaa 2 days nundi enduko, nenu chaala vaatini differentiate chesthunna ani ardhamayyindi. I am not able to look at everything in the same way. Nenu maaaraali. Started seeing life the other way. Road meeda bobbalu unna sareeramtho nadusthunna vyakthini chusaa... Suddengaa moham thippesukunnaa.. Nenu enti ilaa anukuni malli chusaa. I took that courage to see him. Tharuvaatha people suffering with leprosy and all. Chudatam modalu pettaa. Mundu oka laanti bhayam undedi. Vaallu manalaanti manushulekadaa anipinchi, velli vaallake apples ichchi vachchaaa. Felt happy from inside. Inkaa nenu chaala vaatini overcome cheyaali.. I know it will happen as it already started... :) For all this change in me, I can only thank Sadhguru.
5. Fears still strike. Burralo thoughts unnantha kaalam ee badha thappadu kadaa. I know the medicine. Serious effort pettali.
2 comments:
am really glad for this change in you Caps, trust me helping hands are much better than praying lips...am glad, finally you are thinking like me.. there is Sivananda Rehab in Kukatpally, visit that place some time, bhayaalu ani potaay, and about child begging, I will tell you my experience some time dont ever give them a penny!!
I was always thinking about helping people raa, but that was only in the mind, not from heart. So, emina cheyali anukune daanni thappa, in action it was less comparatively and naaku nammakam thakkuva undedi janaala meeda. That made me slow down this process. I loved to help but the things that stopped me was me not having faith. Might be they will misuse the money or blah blah blah... alaa undevi thoughts. After meeting Amu, cheppa kadaa, heheheee, thanu okate cheppedi, if you feel like doing, just do it.. stop thinking about whether or not or so and so, ifs n stuff... ;)
And, you do know, I help but the way things went, it made me be cautious and result was nammakam kolpovatam.. alaa ayipoyedaanni.
The change now is happening after Isha only I think(doing stuff from heart :)). Ante thoughts thagginchi manaspoorthigaa cheyatam plus few fears too got released.
I'll definitely visit this Rehab you mentioned. Thank You... :)